Monday, 30 December 2013
New year new you? Read this!
All done!
Well, that was easier than first expected! 2lbs on :) I am delighted with that result!
Moved it completely forward now, and had a fab day, and even pre cooked some food for the week so I've got myself a good start to the week!
I even for the first time in years wrote a food diary to keep me thinking about what I'm eating too!
Feeling very positive about the week, and hope to end the year as I mean to go though 2014, lots of losses :)
Hope everyone keeps with it, even if you're feeling down, and defeated keep with it :)
Love and syn free chocolate sprinkles
Tracey xxx
Sunday, 29 December 2013
Early meal planning Monday!
The eve of the post Xmas weigh in.....
Wednesday, 18 December 2013
First Xmas on slimming world!
Thursday, 5 December 2013
Neglecting my poor blog!
Monday, 4 November 2013
Meal planning Monday
Monday, 28 October 2013
Meal planning Monday
Monday, 21 October 2013
So this is how it feels!!!
Meal planning Monday
Monday, 14 October 2013
Meal planning Monday
Friday, 11 October 2013
Having a moment of weakness!
Tuesday, 8 October 2013
Remembering to good times :)
Monday, 7 October 2013
Monday meal plan
Wednesday, 2 October 2013
Mid week check in!
Monday, 30 September 2013
Meal planning Monday
Tuesday, 24 September 2013
A brand new day :)
Monday, 23 September 2013
Almost a record!!
Meal planning Monday
work - quiche
Sorry it's been so long!
And guess what i haven't done my normal trick of giving up just before xmas again! YET!!
what an eventful week!
We've spent 4 days in Newquay for my little dude's 2nd birthday, which well hummm he kinda enjoyed inbetween teething, having a cold, and not sleeping very well!!
We left on the monday afternoon so i missed my normal s/w group, so i weighed on the tuesday which is completely new for me as i've never gone to another group to weigh on holiday ever!!
Well, if anyone else is reading who has never weighed away, i'd highly reccomend it! i took my inspiration from my lovely friend sophie, who's fab blog can be found here....http://bend-dontbreak.blogspot.co.uk/ as she went to get weighed when she was visiting her family down here in Plymouth.
It was worth going as i got told i had lost another pound which took me to 1 lb away from losing 3 stone!!
Anyway, then the rest of the week happened!!!
I basically let my hair down and ate what i'd missed for the last 9 months! eak!! At first it was all very controlled but then i lost it, but you know what, i'm not going to be too hard on myself because i was on holiday!
I know deep down i did my best, and if you knew what i'd eaten you may not think so, but i know i did, purely because of the fact i actually went to weigh on that tuesday! By doing so, my holiday started on the tuesday, not the monday before, so if i hadn't have gone, i'd have had another whole 6 days of not so healthy food choices! (Notice i didn't mention bad!!)
So today, is the big day, when i find out how big a gain i have had! but i am feeling ok about it, because at least i know why i have put on and i know exactly what i need to do to fix this! My meal plan is all sorted and my shopping will be done after slimming world!
I'll post my meal plan and my after weighin post later on this evening :)
PS Sorry for any mistakes, i am tired and my spell check is down x
Love and syn free chocolate sprinkles
Tracey xxx
Monday, 9 September 2013
Things i need to remember at weigh in time!
Right, so lets start the day with how i felt in work, and before my weigh in, which i think are the feelings i tend to neglect and push aside, when in reality these are the feelings that i really need to be keeping hold of as these are the feelings that are the ones that are going to keep me going when times are hard and i want to give up!
well, i started work this morning at 7, on my day off, so this could be the reason i am shattered at the moment so i apologise now if i make any atrocious mistakes!!
As i put my overalls on for work and they felt that little bit looser i felt good, happy, like this whole journey has been worth while and i was happy with how i was doing!
Then as i rushed home to get to class on time and change into my weigh in clothes, i felt even better, almost like i was really happy with my self which is rare!
So the whole morning i felt all these happy and proud feelings, all of which i let get taken away from me, and why?????!!!
Because the scales told me i had stayed the same!
Nothing more, nothing less, i stepped on the scales, and from that moment it was like everything had been snatched away from me!! I could have cried, i think i nearly did, i had lots of thoughts going through my head, like disappointment, confusion, sadness, even jealousy as I'd heard of how well everyone else's weigh in's went!!
Now, if you re someone reading this who doesn't have a weight problem, you'd not be wrong to think i am mad, because you know what? I agree!
Why why why on earth do i let my self get dragged down by the numbers? And it's not just me, most of us do it! But why!!
Because unless you ate a couple of big mac meals in between the happy feelings, and getting weighed nothing has changed!!! Absolutely NOTHING!!!
So this is what i need to remember every time i have had a weigh in where i am not too happy with what the numbers tell me!
It's about being a healthy wife to my husband and mother to my baby boy.
It's about not having to run to the plus size side of the shop when i go shopping.
It's about the fact that i have lost more weight than my toddler currently weights! (which feels like a tonne when he stands on your foot trust me!!!)
And it's about, and the whole reason why i am doing this, so i can walk my darling son to school with out him being ashamed of me being his fat mummy!
And that is the thought that i have to keep with me when i feel like I've got no where or when i feel like i want to give up!
And this is the part where i preach about why staying to group really is so important!
If i had left with out having the image therapy this afternoon i would have walked straight into domino's pizza, but i didn't!! Listening to so many inspirational stories, told me not to give up, i reasoned with my self in my head, worked out where i could have gone wrong and built up a plan for the week ahead, all very productive stuff! So instead of running for pizza, i went straight back to work and stocked up on healthy foods!!
i now feel ready to start this week, and hopefully nothing is going to come up to give me any blips and i can get my 3 stone another day, because you know what, it will happen, doesn't matter when all that matters is not giving up!!
Not sure if any of them will read this but I'd like to say a massive thank you to the girls at my group who keep me going, including Fay, Katrina, and of course Rachel our fab consultant! I truly think the people in our group are some very special people, and they keep me coming back! :D
Right, i'm off for some chill out time!
love and syn free chocolate sprinkles
Tracey xxx
Meal planning Monday!
Friday, 6 September 2013
Where to start.......
Well, like the title of tonight's post says............really, where do i start?!!
This week has been a challenge, a real challenge, but i have taken it, and i have embraced it, and if i do put on this Monday, at least i know i gave this week the best shot i could have!
I have rocked this week, on my food choices, and my meals have been lovely and varied, I've even managed to have a lovely KK doughnut fitted in to plan, which is always lovely!
These times were the times I'd consider the up times, the times where i am perfectly happy, not a care in the world and the only thing which would be in my way would be poor planning, which as well all know, i have my food set out to military standard lol.
I've had some lovely meals, fish stew with pasta, salads, spag bol, tonight was steak and chips, lots of lovely fruit salads, I've really worked at it this week!
And now on to the deep part of tonight's post...........this week, i have had the urge to binge, now.....I'm aware not everyone is familiar with the concept of a binge so now, i will try and explain them from my view!
Binges, well they are a double edged sword..........
On one side, they are full of the lusty promise that they will make you feel amazing, it will physically get to the stage where all you can think about is the food you need, and it seems to run in phases, for instance, in school it was crisps and chocolate, and coke cola. then a few years on in college it was squares, the crisps, and weirdly, cheesy mash with chicken and peas was always a favourite too! Then in my working life when times were hard it would be a whole chocolate cake with litres of full fat coke, and you have no idea how bad i feel writing this down when i remember how many times i have done this! Like i have said before I've been an emotional eater since 15.
i have a physical feeling when i start these binges, like it awakens all of my taste buds, and that food, is the only food i can imagine wanting in that very moment, i'd almost compare it to a pregnancy craving kinda feeling!
It was always something very specific, like an old friend if you will, something i could rely on, it would never be busy, or let me down last minute, it never left!!
Then the other side of the sword..................which would come about 30 mins (yes that soon, sometimes even sooner!) the guilt, the disgust, the disappointment, the feeling of gluttony the feeling that what i had just done wasn't normal it was horrible and that in fact after the initial buzz i felt fat and gross, and had an even worse image of my self!
you see the food i chose, made me feel happy, secure, protected and i think the fact i had phases of the same foods made me associate it would being in my happy place, a place that was familiar.It was a time where i had a very low self esteem and very low opinion of my self.
So, with the help of some very good friends and a very supportive hubby who makes awesome s/w cakes!! i avoided a binge this week, and I've never been so proud :) I'd like to take all the credit, but i can't as i REALLY REALLY wanted to binge, i was in that zone, and it was all i could think about, but they stopped me, and for that i feel so lucky!
This week has made me realise how far i have come in the 15 years i have been doing this to my self, it has made me realise that i really have managed to sort out some of my esteem issues, and that these days i really do have people who love and want to support me through out the whole of this hard, but very rewarding journey :))
phew, i think, that's blog post over :))
Monday, 2 September 2013
Meal planning Monday :)
Things not to say to some one trying to lose weight!
Well, today has been a thought provoking day to say the least!
Have you ever had one of them days where people feel the need to question your actions? That was my day!
Firstly I get asked why I am bothering to do slimming world....surely its common sense?! Well, in a word, yes it is! They're right! But is so much more than that!!
Mondays for me are my chance to spend a couple of hours with people who I know 'get me'. These people some of who I known for the full 4 years, some not have been such a big inspiration on my journey, they've become such good friends as well as my massive support network! I genuinely could not have done this without my group and my fab consultant's help!
So yes, I am paying to be taught to eat healthily but at the end of the day it's much more than that! And as I and millions of others have proven it works!!
Secondly.....you can't eat that you're on a diet!! Now this is my MASSIVE bug bearer!
Right, I expect this won't be the last time I say this, but I'm not dieting, I am food optimising/healthy eating!
This is a maintainable plan which you can follow long term, with this in mind, can anyone, really maintain a lifestyle with no cake, crisps, chocolate and all other nice yummy foods, the answer is no!
Which is where the beauty of slimming world comes in! There is no food off limits, which is why I picked this plan!
So please, if you see me munching on a krispy kreme, or a pasty, or indeed my sausage bap, from today, please accept that I have made this choice and can build it into plan! I have lost almost 3 stone doing this so I think I will be just fine thanks!
Thirdly, which a lovely twitter follower tweeted me, do not ask a curvy girl 'when she's due!' How anyone can make this mistake is beyond me! Preggie bumps are totally different! I LOVED my preggie bump!
Well, that's my ranting over! (For today!)
Today's weigh in was actually fab considering I had a massive wobble, a pound and a half off! Which means I have 2lbs to go till my 3 stone award! Feeling good again now and moving forward! I think I can do this you know!!!!
Right, that's me done!
Love and syn free chocolate sprinkles!
Tracey xxx
Sunday, 1 September 2013
Planning planning planning!
Saturday, 31 August 2013
Thank you!
Well, I don't know what to say :-). I was overwhelmed by the PM's and comments I've had about last nights entry and I just want to say a massive thank you for the support I have had :-).
This blog for me is kinda surreal as I write it as if no one cares and no one will read, so to get that much help/support and encouragement is lovely!
Well, today has felt much better and I have made better choices which is a good place to start!
The silly thing is I felt happier today in my huge clothes that hang off of me than my nice new ones.......surely there's some psychological reason why I feel safer and happier in my old clothes!?! Maybe i just don't like change! Who knows! Thought's anyone?!
Anyway of to sleep now!
Love and syn free chocolate sprinkles
Tracey x
Friday, 30 August 2013
Massive wobble
Well, this evening i am struggling, i seem to have lost all my motivation, i am hoping it is just a blip, i am sure it is just a blip, but it doesn't stop me from feeling like poo this evening!!
I am making this blog to be brutally honest with myself, and i will be as hard as it is, but i feel myself falling into 'holiday mode' already :(
I ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS lose control when i go away, and then i give up and join again in january feeling pissed that i let my will power, and my hard work all go to waste, this next couple of months really are my danger zone, and i know it............and rather than embracing the challenge and fighting it, i feel my self letting histroy repeat it's self for yet another year :(
In fact, i am 90% sure in the 4 years i've been on and off of plan, i have NEVER made it through to November! So i feel like i am setting myself up for a fall already as it's like a yearly ritual!
It's like i expect to fail, even though i try so hard, i always slip up eventually!
There, that was the brutally honest, wobble, and i guess i am being this honest publicly, not for attention, but as a cry for help.........i don't know what it is about food, if i have an over eating disorder, or just plain and simply like it just a little too much, but either way i have some kind of emotional issues from it, that won't go away, and i have been like this for half my life now.
So, today, if i am 100% honest, i have gone way over my syns, and now i feel rubbish, where as a couple of weeks ago (Hell even last week) I'd have been my normal positive self and said i can turn it around!
I know some people will be reading this thinking 'woah girl get a grip' but the ones that don't think that, will be the ones who 'get it!' The ones who have been there and out of the other end, and i KNOW i am not the only one to ever think like this, i can't be, but at the moment, i feel like food has some kind of hold on me. :\
I will beat this, i have to, i've not lost nearly 3 stone to get beaten by something as silly as food, but tonight, the end of the tunnel looks like it's been closed for a long time :( Heeeellpppp!
sorry for the negative post, but i really needed to get that out in the open
phew.....................
thats all for now
Love and syn free choclate sprinkles
Tracey xxx
Wednesday, 28 August 2013
Just another day in paradise....
Well, today has been pretty uneventful so not much to blog about, but then the beauty of this blog is, it's mainly about food, and of course i eat every day!!
So, today's meals have been.....
Breakfast - Sardines on toast. (Had to menu change due to the fact i couldn't go shopping till late due to the police closing off our road! (Another story!)
Lunch - Ham and prawn salad which i have a photo of which was rather simple and yummy
Tea - Paella
So all pretty much still on plan but i do need to add some more fruit in to the mix as i really want to lose this 3 and a 1/2 pounds in 2 weigh in's for my holiday!
Only snack i have had all day was some melon slices which i had while Ethan scoffed a chicken and sweetcorn sarnie that i got for him on our walk to Tesco!
I do still need to get my motivation for body magic, walking some where with a purpose, or with friends i can do, but i don't really venture out much apart from that which is what i think i need to change! The good news is my step machine has finally made it upstairs though, which is progress!!
I have had lots of nice comments about my weight loss lately which is really helping when i have the times when i am on my own, and think......well it won't hurt if i have something really naughty and off plan :)
Anyway, here are some photos of the yummy food i have had including last nights tea, and of me and my little boy having some mummy and son time!!
I'm now off to enjoy my well deserved flake and a cuppa, as bed times have all of a sudden got VERY hard in this house, which is enough to drive me to chocolate to be honest!!
Have a lovely evening!
Love and syn free chocolate sprinkles!
Tracey xxx
Tuesday, 27 August 2013
A Mad mad day!
Not forgotten my blog today, just had a manic crazy day with a lot of challenges food optimising wise, which i think i overcome to the best i could!!
Well, this morning started well, made a lovely omelet with whatever free foods were in my fridge which is a common theme with my breakfasts to be honest!! Left overs rule!!! LOL
Then, on to getting my quiche made which is the ultra important job of the day as it means i have my snacks sorted for a couple of days, i do have to add that the quiche is MEGA family friendly, this week's is smoked salmon and sugarsnap peas which went down a treat with my son which is always a good thing!!
Then on to lunch.....well, as my day got more complicated so i lost the control in my choices which for me is a mega danger zone, luckily i hadn't let my self get hungry but still the eating out option always gets me a little.....hummmm shall we say, anxious to say the least, purely psychological, in my head, even after doing slimming world for 4 years, i still think eating out is 'cheating' even though i only had a jacket potato, beans, cheese and salad!! Please some one tell me this is not just me!
Well, anyway, that was lunch done, which was also shared with said toddler lol!
Snack time at work was pretty uneventful thankfully due to the fact someone else who is slimming sat with me, and all i can say is thank god!!!! i was weighing up syn options in my head of all the crisps and chocolate in the vending machine at work, and almost went for the crisps but decided wasn't worth it!!
Well, i can't blog about tea as i haven't had it yet, but it's on plan so that's all good, but i can tell you about my lovely surprise after work :)))
Hubby decided to do some baking with Ethan this evening and made a rather yummy s/w chocolate cake for me to come home to! :)) If any one wants the recipe i can post links, well, it was lovely! Yes, a little eggy but beggars can't be choosers!! hehe
Anyway, that was my food day, not really that thrilling but all on plan, having spicy chicken for tea, but that's not cooked yet so for now i will have to just sit, relax and drink tea!!
I will post some photo's of today's food when i get back to my i phone!!
Well, by for now,
Love and syn free chocolate sprinkes!
Tracey x