Evening people :)
Well, this evening i am struggling, i seem to have lost all my motivation, i am hoping it is just a blip, i am sure it is just a blip, but it doesn't stop me from feeling like poo this evening!!
I am making this blog to be brutally honest with myself, and i will be as hard as it is, but i feel myself falling into 'holiday mode' already :(
I ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS lose control when i go away, and then i give up and join again in january feeling pissed that i let my will power, and my hard work all go to waste, this next couple of months really are my danger zone, and i know it............and rather than embracing the challenge and fighting it, i feel my self letting histroy repeat it's self for yet another year :(
In fact, i am 90% sure in the 4 years i've been on and off of plan, i have NEVER made it through to November! So i feel like i am setting myself up for a fall already as it's like a yearly ritual!
It's like i expect to fail, even though i try so hard, i always slip up eventually!
There, that was the brutally honest, wobble, and i guess i am being this honest publicly, not for attention, but as a cry for help.........i don't know what it is about food, if i have an over eating disorder, or just plain and simply like it just a little too much, but either way i have some kind of emotional issues from it, that won't go away, and i have been like this for half my life now.
So, today, if i am 100% honest, i have gone way over my syns, and now i feel rubbish, where as a couple of weeks ago (Hell even last week) I'd have been my normal positive self and said i can turn it around!
I know some people will be reading this thinking 'woah girl get a grip' but the ones that don't think that, will be the ones who 'get it!' The ones who have been there and out of the other end, and i KNOW i am not the only one to ever think like this, i can't be, but at the moment, i feel like food has some kind of hold on me. :\
I will beat this, i have to, i've not lost nearly 3 stone to get beaten by something as silly as food, but tonight, the end of the tunnel looks like it's been closed for a long time :( Heeeellpppp!
sorry for the negative post, but i really needed to get that out in the open
phew.....................
thats all for now
Love and syn free choclate sprinkles
Tracey xxx
Maybe you need something as a distraction? I know I eat out of habit (biccie with my 9pm cuppa..) and boredom x
ReplyDeleteCandy crush :P
ReplyDeleteHay u why dont u make a fruit salad up and wen u go in the kitchen put it somewhere u see it.
DeleteIve heard u say this a million time but we wont let u slip and i dont think hubby lil man and your friends will either so today is over and done now a fresh start tonorrow and stop pushin yourself to get that four lb hun each week u r lighter than last x
Keep goin trace
Thank you Sam :)
ReplyDeleteI don't know you Tracey but have been reading your post and fab recipes on rachels slimming page and have taken inspiration from you. Please do not give up, it is just a blip you are going through. you have done amazing so get back on track. Look forward to reading more of your post.
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Thank you Maxine I will keep posting :)
ReplyDeleteU will come thro this with a slim body and a big smile hun food will only beat u if u allow it hun and u wont because u r stronger than that x
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