Thank you!

Well, I don't know what to say :-). I was overwhelmed by the PM's and comments I've had about last nights entry and I just want to say a massive thank you for the support I have had :-).

This blog for me is kinda surreal as I write it as if no one cares and no one will read, so to get that much help/support and encouragement is lovely!

Well, today has felt much better and I have made better choices which is a good place to start!

The silly thing is I felt happier today in my huge clothes that hang off of me than my nice new ones.......surely there's some psychological reason why I feel safer and happier in my old clothes!?! Maybe i just don't like change! Who knows! Thought's anyone?!

Anyway of to sleep now!
Love and syn free chocolate sprinkles
Tracey x

Massive wobble

Evening people :)

Well, this evening i am struggling, i seem to have lost all my motivation, i am hoping it is just a blip, i am sure it is just a blip, but it doesn't stop me from feeling like poo this evening!!

I am making this blog to be brutally honest with myself, and i will be as hard as it is, but i feel myself falling into 'holiday mode' already :(

I ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS lose control when i go away, and then i give up and join again in january feeling pissed that i let my will power, and my hard work all go to waste, this next couple of months really are my danger zone, and i know it............and rather than embracing the challenge and fighting it, i feel my self letting histroy repeat it's self for yet another year :(

In fact, i am 90% sure in the 4 years i've been on and off of plan, i have NEVER made it through to November! So i feel like i am setting myself up for a fall already as it's like a yearly ritual!

It's like i expect to fail, even though i try so hard, i always slip up eventually!

There, that was the brutally honest, wobble, and i guess i am being this honest publicly, not for attention, but as a cry for help.........i don't know what it is about food, if i have an over eating disorder, or just plain and simply like it just a little too much, but either way i have some kind of emotional issues from it, that won't go away, and i have been like this for half my life now.

So, today, if i am 100% honest, i have gone way over my syns, and now i feel rubbish, where as a couple of weeks ago (Hell even last week) I'd have been my normal positive self and said i can turn it around!

I know some people will be reading this thinking 'woah girl get a grip' but the ones that don't think that, will be the ones who 'get it!' The ones who have been there and out of the other end, and i KNOW i am not the only one to ever think like this, i can't be, but at the moment, i feel like food has some kind of hold on me. :\

I will beat this, i have to, i've not lost nearly 3 stone to get beaten by something as silly as food, but tonight, the end of the tunnel looks like it's been closed for a long time :( Heeeellpppp!

sorry for the negative post, but i really needed to get that out in the open
phew.....................
thats all for now
Love and syn free choclate sprinkles
Tracey xxx

Just another day in paradise....

Evening fellow mummy's, slimmers and general nosy people!

Well, today has been pretty uneventful so not much to blog about, but then the beauty of this blog is, it's mainly about food, and of course i eat every day!!

So, today's meals have been.....

Breakfast - Sardines on toast. (Had to menu change due to the fact i couldn't go shopping till late due to the police closing off our road! (Another story!)

Lunch - Ham and prawn salad which i have a photo of which was rather simple and yummy

Tea - Paella

So all pretty much still on plan but i do need to add some more fruit in to the mix as i really want to lose this 3 and a 1/2 pounds in 2 weigh in's for my holiday!

Only snack i have had all day was some melon slices which i had while Ethan scoffed a chicken and sweetcorn sarnie that i got for him on our walk to Tesco!

I do still need to get my motivation for body magic, walking some where with a purpose, or with friends i can do, but i don't really venture out much apart from that which is what i think i need to change! The good news is my step machine has finally made it upstairs though, which is progress!!

I have had lots of nice comments about my weight loss lately which is really helping when i have the times when i am on my own, and think......well it won't hurt if i have something really naughty and off plan :)

Anyway, here are some photos of the yummy food i have had including last nights tea, and of me and my little boy having some mummy and son time!!

I'm now off to enjoy my well deserved flake and a cuppa,  as bed times have all of a sudden got VERY hard in this house, which is enough to drive me to chocolate to be honest!!

Have a lovely evening!
Love and syn free chocolate sprinkles!
Tracey xxx 

Ps, sorry about the random placing of photos! Trying to get to grips with this haha!