Thank you!

Well, I don't know what to say :-). I was overwhelmed by the PM's and comments I've had about last nights entry and I just want to say a massive thank you for the support I have had :-).

This blog for me is kinda surreal as I write it as if no one cares and no one will read, so to get that much help/support and encouragement is lovely!

Well, today has felt much better and I have made better choices which is a good place to start!

The silly thing is I felt happier today in my huge clothes that hang off of me than my nice new ones.......surely there's some psychological reason why I feel safer and happier in my old clothes!?! Maybe i just don't like change! Who knows! Thought's anyone?!

Anyway of to sleep now!
Love and syn free chocolate sprinkles
Tracey x

Massive wobble

Evening people :)

Well, this evening i am struggling, i seem to have lost all my motivation, i am hoping it is just a blip, i am sure it is just a blip, but it doesn't stop me from feeling like poo this evening!!

I am making this blog to be brutally honest with myself, and i will be as hard as it is, but i feel myself falling into 'holiday mode' already :(

I ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS lose control when i go away, and then i give up and join again in january feeling pissed that i let my will power, and my hard work all go to waste, this next couple of months really are my danger zone, and i know it............and rather than embracing the challenge and fighting it, i feel my self letting histroy repeat it's self for yet another year :(

In fact, i am 90% sure in the 4 years i've been on and off of plan, i have NEVER made it through to November! So i feel like i am setting myself up for a fall already as it's like a yearly ritual!

It's like i expect to fail, even though i try so hard, i always slip up eventually!

There, that was the brutally honest, wobble, and i guess i am being this honest publicly, not for attention, but as a cry for help.........i don't know what it is about food, if i have an over eating disorder, or just plain and simply like it just a little too much, but either way i have some kind of emotional issues from it, that won't go away, and i have been like this for half my life now.

So, today, if i am 100% honest, i have gone way over my syns, and now i feel rubbish, where as a couple of weeks ago (Hell even last week) I'd have been my normal positive self and said i can turn it around!

I know some people will be reading this thinking 'woah girl get a grip' but the ones that don't think that, will be the ones who 'get it!' The ones who have been there and out of the other end, and i KNOW i am not the only one to ever think like this, i can't be, but at the moment, i feel like food has some kind of hold on me. :\

I will beat this, i have to, i've not lost nearly 3 stone to get beaten by something as silly as food, but tonight, the end of the tunnel looks like it's been closed for a long time :( Heeeellpppp!

sorry for the negative post, but i really needed to get that out in the open
phew.....................
thats all for now
Love and syn free choclate sprinkles
Tracey xxx

Just another day in paradise....

Evening fellow mummy's, slimmers and general nosy people!

Well, today has been pretty uneventful so not much to blog about, but then the beauty of this blog is, it's mainly about food, and of course i eat every day!!

So, today's meals have been.....

Breakfast - Sardines on toast. (Had to menu change due to the fact i couldn't go shopping till late due to the police closing off our road! (Another story!)

Lunch - Ham and prawn salad which i have a photo of which was rather simple and yummy

Tea - Paella

So all pretty much still on plan but i do need to add some more fruit in to the mix as i really want to lose this 3 and a 1/2 pounds in 2 weigh in's for my holiday!

Only snack i have had all day was some melon slices which i had while Ethan scoffed a chicken and sweetcorn sarnie that i got for him on our walk to Tesco!

I do still need to get my motivation for body magic, walking some where with a purpose, or with friends i can do, but i don't really venture out much apart from that which is what i think i need to change! The good news is my step machine has finally made it upstairs though, which is progress!!

I have had lots of nice comments about my weight loss lately which is really helping when i have the times when i am on my own, and think......well it won't hurt if i have something really naughty and off plan :)

Anyway, here are some photos of the yummy food i have had including last nights tea, and of me and my little boy having some mummy and son time!!

I'm now off to enjoy my well deserved flake and a cuppa,  as bed times have all of a sudden got VERY hard in this house, which is enough to drive me to chocolate to be honest!!

Have a lovely evening!
Love and syn free chocolate sprinkles!
Tracey xxx 

Ps, sorry about the random placing of photos! Trying to get to grips with this haha!

A Mad mad day!

Good evening everyone!!

Not forgotten my blog today, just had a manic crazy day with a lot of challenges food optimising wise, which i think i overcome to the best i could!!

Well, this morning started well, made a lovely omelet with whatever free foods were in my fridge which is a common theme with my breakfasts to be honest!! Left overs rule!!! LOL

Then, on to getting my quiche made which is the ultra important job of the day as it means i have my snacks sorted for a couple of days, i do have to add that the quiche is MEGA family friendly, this week's is smoked salmon and sugarsnap peas which went down a treat with my son which is always a good thing!!

Then on to lunch.....well, as my day got more complicated so i lost the control in my choices which for me is a mega danger zone, luckily i hadn't let my self get hungry but still the eating out option always gets me a little.....hummmm shall we say, anxious to say the least, purely psychological, in my head, even after doing slimming world for 4 years, i still think eating out is 'cheating' even though i only had a jacket potato, beans, cheese and salad!! Please some one tell me this is not just me!

Well, anyway, that was lunch done, which was also shared with said toddler lol!

Snack time at work was pretty uneventful thankfully due to the fact someone else who is slimming sat with me, and all i can say is thank god!!!! i was weighing up syn options in my head of all the crisps and chocolate in the vending machine at work, and almost went for the crisps but decided wasn't worth it!!

Well, i can't blog about tea as i haven't had it yet, but it's on plan so that's all good, but i can tell you about my lovely surprise after work :)))

Hubby decided to do some baking with Ethan this evening and made a rather yummy s/w chocolate cake for me to come home to! :)) If any one wants the recipe i can post links, well, it was lovely! Yes, a little eggy but beggars can't be choosers!! hehe

Anyway, that was my food day, not really that thrilling but all on plan, having spicy chicken for tea, but that's not cooked yet so for now i will have to just sit, relax and drink tea!!

I will post some photo's of today's food when i get back to my i phone!!

Well, by for now,
Love and syn free chocolate sprinkes!
Tracey x

Ohhh here is my omlette and my quiche, which admittedly looks like vomit but I forgot to take one of it finished and looking lovely lol!

This weeks meals!

Tuesday 

Breakfast 

Ham, tomato Omelette 

Lunch

S/w Quiche and salad 

Work

Quiche 

Tea 

Gammon,  jacket potato and beans

Wednesday

Breakfast 

Eggs on toast 

Lunch 

Chicken salad

Tea 

Paella 

Thursday 

Breakfast 

Sardines on toast

Lunch

Celery and potato soup

Work

Paella

Tea

S/w Fish and chips 

Friday 

Breakfast 

Veggie Grill up

Lunch 

Beans on toast 

Tea

Quorn Stir fry 

Saturday 

Breakfast 

Weetabix 

Lunch 

Fish 

Tea 

Home made burgers 

Sunday 

Breakfast 

Grill up 

Lunch 

Noodles 

Tea 

Special Curry  

A new beginning!

Well, as I am doing a blog now finally I figure it's best I start logging everything I do! :) 

Firstly you'll get the idea soon that I'm very sadly into taking photos of all my food! So if you hate people who take photos of their food, this certainly isn't the blog for you!!

I'll be blogging my food plans, and also I guess blogging the food stuffs that aren't exactly to the plan! (We've all been there eh!) 

I weigh in on a Monday, and so far I have lost 2 stone 10 and a half lbs this time around with slimming world! I've never tried any other plans as this one works for me as there really are no foods off limits which appeals to me! Lol 

So, maybe I should finish with a little about what's gone on today! 

Today was weigh in day and I lost half a pound, my target was a pound but I'm just happy it was off to be honest :)

The most significant thing today was  a bought my first pair of size 16 jeans since  I got married nearly 4 years ago! Which may sound awful to some but at my biggest I've been size 24 so I was over the moon! Especially as my target is size 14-16 :) 

Any way, that's enough for now but I will be back!! 

Love and syn free chocolate sprinkles

Tracey xxx